The current header image on my blog was taken at a locally owned coffee shop that’s just a mile down the road from my house. A cozy, aesthetically pleasing coffee shop with delicious Italian soda and tables perfectly situated in the sunshine. A coffee shop that closed it’s doors permanently at the end of April.
And even though I only visited this coffee shop a few times, it was nice just knowing it was there. I had plans to spend the summer writing within those walls, while trying new blends of tea. But plans change.
This isn’t the only plan that’s changed in my life – a much bigger change looms on the horizon. This fall, I’m going to be moving from Minneapolis to Kansas City. I want to be closer to my boyfriend and the other friends I have down there. I need a change of scenery, a place to start fresh. And as much as I love my people here in Minnesota, there are a lot of memories I want to distance myself from.
But I’ve never done something this drastic and adventurous before. I keep seeing myself in front of that coffee shop I loved – now empty, with the doors locked. I can’t get back in. And if I leave behind the life I’ve built for myself here, it’s going to alter my destiny forever. There won’t be any going back. Of course, I’m excited to start on a new path, but the voice of the familiar is a seductive one.
Even though I still have many months left to emotionally prepare, downsize my belongings, and find a new job, the fact that I’ve made the decision to move is a jarring experience. And although I’ve been afraid of a great many things in the past year, this is the first thing that I’m equally afraid of and excited for. At the same time. It isn’t a roller coaster of emotions as much as it’s the seemingly contradictory emotions fused together.
Will I miss my coffee shop? Desperately. But God has opened so many doors for me – relationally, spiritually, financially. And if my next life chapter requires closing some doors to receive the joy He has in store for me elsewhere…well, then I think that’s something I can do.